by Wendy Strgar August 03, 2010
In May, I won a cash investment for my company Good Clean Love from the Willamette Angel Conference. Today, almost 3 months later, I went to deposit the prize in the bank with the company’s new CEO. It was a joyful moment, the meeting of so many dreams come together in the form of capital infusion. For the many years that I have been bootstrapping this little love company, imagining this day, was like winning the golden ticket.
There were so many days along the way that the weight of money worries almost made me quit. Not knowing how the next product run would come together or get paid, the monthly prayers that payroll and rent would be covered and the small monthly annuities that was all that we could pay to all of our professionals who kept believing in us just because we kept showing up. That time was a training ground, where I went from being sick and distracted about money to slowly learning to trust that somehow enough money always showed up.
As I stopped fearing the worst about money and came to understand and think about it as the source of energy that it is, I started to learn to forgive myself and believe that what I had been creating out of nothing held way more value than the bank ledger often told. The clearer I got about my beliefs in what Good Clean Love offered in both products and wisdom, the more wealth of experience and trust I collected. Remarkable talents in business management, product design, manufacturing skill, legal and financial help all kept dropping in their two cents, or five dollar bills, or whatever they could afford. Everyone was in it for the same thing, the wealth of offering love.
Even as I write this I know some would consider me to be naïve enough to believe that people want to invest in love however they can. All these years of relying on more good faith than capital has made Good Clean Love more of a social non profit than a for profit business. But now with this investment, we leap into the world of executive business planning and investors who trust in ROI. How thrilling to be part of a dream that has the chance to fulfill its own destiny.
Carl Sandburg once wrote: “Money is power, freedom, a cushion, the root of all evil, the sum of blessings.” Developing a relationship to money is as complex as our relationship to our sexuality- it includes all that is good and most valuable about us and all that is fearful and needy as well. Conscious and loving choices about how to think about, communicate about and show up for our relationships to both are the legs our life stands on.
by Wendy Strgar May 22, 2018
There is no time like long summer nights to cultivate our uniquely, profoundly human capacity for pleasure, especially sexual pleasure. Our pleasure response transforms our relationship to each other and even to life itself. Focusing on pleasure not only changes how we see our opportunities for intimate connection, but also invites us into a deeper relationship with our erotic soul.
by Wendy Strgar May 17, 2018
It becomes hard to trust your own thinking when nothing seems to be working. The space between how I thought it would go and how it is going seems to widen in front of my eyes. Maybe most difficult of all is how often the undesirable outcomes around us spill over into our relationships, both at home and at work. An errant comment too easily turns into an argument. I become blind to my impact on people around me, caught up in the unresolved problems surrounding me. During times like these, we often underestimate the power of the choices we make and how it can create a path back towards what’s working or down the slippery slope of self-destruction, which my husband affectionately calls “flirting with the gutter.”
Here is my short list to making it better when it isn’t working at all. Each one helps you do the next one, so start at the beginning and work your way down.
by Wendy Strgar May 03, 2018