“Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.” -T.S. Eliot
Tomorrow I am going to speak to hundreds of people at once… I have been waiting for an opportunity like this for years it seems, and now that it is upon me I can’t quite get the story straight, except when I am reading it from the note cards. I can’t quite make the leaps and transitions that happened as I wrote and it makes me anxious.
The truth of the statement, “Be careful what you wish for, because you might just get it…” rings louder in my head all the time. I am reaching for the stars in my dreams these days, trusting the universe to show me the way and keeping my wish simple- let me be of service teaching what I know about love, let the message carry to as many as can hear and benefit from it. Let the resources and people and events that are necessary find me.
So here they are finding me and now I have to go into the prayer with all the positivity I have generated over the last 313 days to have the heart to show up for my dreams and bigger still to trust my voice to tell the story. I have rarely been at a loss for words in my life, but time limited speeches have not been my most articulate moments. Also according to a recent lecture I had about presentations, I know that a really good speech is always seriously practiced; still here I am and the talk is tomorrow, so courage has to take the lead over preparation.
So now I am off to prepare and I am going to start with a meditation on embracing the dream, the story and my voice. Besides that I have long stood by this quote from Dr. Seuss: “Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”
I know it is this positivity quest that continues to lead me to the best part of myself. Tomorrow I will have a little more experience with seeing how far I can go.