“The appearance of a disease is swift as an arrow; its disappearance slow, like a thread.” ~Chinese Proverb
Today might be the first time I have ever felt happy and sick at the same time. Usually bodily ailments brings my mood down with it, but instead I feel sad and disappointed that my body can’t come along for the ride. Actually it was probably the intensity of the day and the hundreds of people that I talked to about all the work I have been doing to prepare for today that helped me ignore my healing regimen. I am paying for it now.
Illness is a strange thing, the way it can hit so fast when you aren’t paying attention and strike so fully that then it is all you can attend to. The rest of life, everything else that seemed important before falls away and there is just you, living in a body that needs your full attention. The more you fight it or ignore it, the louder the illness speaks. There is no denying it.
Still, in spite of my hacking cough and tight throat, my positivity quest is holding and I keep looking for my center even in the midst of thousands of people. I can stand in the midst of my own work and not compare myself and feel like it is enough. So what message is this hacking cough sending? Maybe an opportunity to bear witness that my attitude could very well be the healthiest thing about me today and that is the key to healing the rest of me.
The Irish say ,”A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor’s book.” I think I can manage both. However, I wish I was well enough to go out dancing tonight.